The title is self-explanatory to me. Yes, to ME. However, I do believe that many WILL relate. When I posted my first blog, I was soooo… excited. I was full of zeal and couldn’t wait until my next post. I WAS WALKING IN THE PROMISES THAT GOD HAS FOR MY LIFE: to minister IN REAL TIME as life IS happening. This Blog is (I am crying as I type this for this is IN REAL TIME) a MANIFESTATION of ONE of MY PROMISES from GOD. It is one of the promises I wrote down (Joshua 18) and DECLARE AND DECREE EVERYDAY (before I leave my home and before I go to bed).
I AM to post weekly and I designated Sunday morning (I wake up between 4:30 and 5:00 a.m.) to be the day that I would post to the blog. Sunday is the one day of the week that I AM NOT RUSHING. I truly REST on Sunday. I continue to WORSHIP the LORD, JESUS at Greater Faith Christian Ministries (I, anticipating in most cases HOW the LORD, JESUS will confirm HIS WORD in my life). I then hangout with family and friends: dinner at my sisters or favorite spots such as the Crockpot, movies, visiting, concerts (Karen Brown and Yella P if it’s before 9 p.m.).
In fewer words, I could truly minister IN REAL TIME: early morning is spectacular because the birds are worshiping in song and the trees are “showing some sign” branches up and swaying and I join the birds and the trees in worship and as a result-I can truly HEAR what GOD wants me to share as HE ministers to me.
So, What happened? I was still waking up between 4:30-5:00 a.m. but did not join HIS lesser creations (birds and the trees in worshiping OUR GOD). I tried, unsuccessfully in most cases, to go back to bed and find REASONS to stay at home and in the bed. I was restless and could not sleep and have not had a good night’s sleep since now that I am blogging about it (HE’S presenting me faultless).
In fewer words, I became afraid and was actually doubting HIM-it’s that simple and I thank GOD for HIS GRACE and MERCY. HOW, with all the proclamations that I DECLARE of a WONDERFUL GOD can I be afraid? I have been WAITING AND (HAVE MERCY LORD) became CONTENT AND COMFORTABLE WAITING.
Truthfully, I began to believe that I would only live a life of just WAITING on the PROMISES and that THE MANIFESTATION of the PROMISES WERE FOR ANYONE AND EVERYONE BUT ME (LORD HAVE MERCY ON ME). My non posting on the blog was due to me “…being afraid of their faces…” (MY DOUBTING AND MY FEARS).
THANK GOD that in SPITE of me that “…THY will be done…” This blog along with this post proves that (BLESS the name of the LORD) GOD IS FAITHFUL even when we are afraid and doubtful. HE LOVES me in SPITE of ME and that it is the reason that I can say with CONFIDENCE AND BOLDNESS.…..
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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