“….You talk too much…..and you never shut up…” Sample lyrics by RUN DMC. When performing that song, they should have interjected…TANGEY V. you talk too much….and you never shut up….” I knew something about everything and I knew everything about some things. I was constantly TALKING. I had an array of people whom I could and would TALK to. I could and would carefully and meticulously select my intended “gab mate” because I needed and wanted to TALK.
I thank GOD that I didn’t TALK about people in most (I did say most) of my conversations. But when I did TALK, I would TALK for hours (daily). From sunrise to sunset, I would TALK, TALK, TALK. I would sit down and TALK. NO, I HAD TO sit down and TALK. I PRIDED myself on being the PERSON that people could/would TALK to. I AM a conversationalist.
The more I TALKED and avail myself for TALKS, I would proclaim that GOD was “PREPARING and PURGING ME”for bigger and better. How would I know? I never stopped TALKING to HEAR GOD.
I kept TALKING until I HAD TO CRY OUT TO THE LORD. I was all TALKED OUT!!!! I began to feel alone, empty and lost after many of those conversations that I initiated. Yes, I TALKED about THE GOODNESS of the LORD. YES, I TALKED about being a vessel for the LORD. YES, I TALKED about JESUS and the HOLY SPIRIT (gifts and fruits). So why did I began to feel alone, empty and lost IF I WAS proclaiming that JESUS IS LORD?
REVELATION-TALKING was just a cover for my fears and doubts. I was TALKING because I was afraid. I was afraid of HEARING GOD, LISTENING to GOD and BEING WRONG ABOUT GOD’S PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE among many other things. I WAS TALKING TO everyone but GOD.
NOW, when I find myself “TALKING too much”, I am aware that I am not TALKING to GOD. I repent, thank HIM for HIS GRACE and MERCY and BLESS HIS HOLY NAME…BECAUSE
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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