I find that I am in a CONTINUOUS and CONSTANT state of awe. I am moving from asking HOW GOD?? to TRUSTING and PROCLAIMING WOW, GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! Hence the title of the post. My QUESTIONS have lessen as my WORSHIP and PRAISE have increased (NOTE the punctuation marks).
I, like many, am constantly struggling to KEEP the FAITH and NOT get WEARY. On more than many occasions, I have said, yes SAID,”…LORD, I AM tired and I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE OR ANY LONGER…? Not only did I FEEL faint I WANTED to FAINT. Where’s the couch LORD, I AM FAINT and want to FAINT as COMFORTABLE as possible. In my WISDOM (I was SO into me), I thought that if I FAINTED then GOD would RESPOND (deliver, heal, make free) quicker and EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT!!!!
NOPE-HE WAS/IS MORE like the parents that PATIENTLY (BLESS THE LORD) WATCH their children POUT and have TEMPER TANTRUMS. HE EARNESTLY AND LOVINGLY LISTENS as I lament about everything (tired, tired, tired, lonely, broke, broke, tired, tired). I also give an ACCOUNT of what OTHERS have done to THWART my ability and even my DESIRE TO do MY assigned chores/tasks. MY assigned chores/tasks are TOO HARD, TOO BIG and TOO MUCH. In my own wisdom (I was SO into me), I KNEW that HE wouldn’t require me to complete ALL of that TEDIOUS, THANKLESS, DIVALESS (new word) work.
AFTER I finished pouting and the temper tantrums ceased, HE told me that HE knew that the work WAS/IS TEDIOUS, THANKLESS, AND DIVALESS (new word) but it DOES NOT NEGATE THE FACT THAT I CAN’T HAVE CHOCOLATE BEFORE DINNER and that MY ROOM MUST BE SPIC AND SPAN (Dorothy Mae Skinner Jordan’s words). HE DOES NOT ADMONISH ME but SHARES HIS THANKLESS experiences. HE REMINDS ME of HOW I AM BLESSED to have a FATHER who does not believe in “busy work”. That EVERYTHING HE DOES, ALLOWS IS FOR THE PERFECTING OF THE SAINTS.
I can honestly state that I am not asking HOW GOD?? as much as I use to, I have really begun to TRUST AS I SHOUT AND PROCLAIM WOW, GOD!!!!!!!!!! Please note that this transition from HOW GOD? to WOW, GOD!!!!!! IS NOT EASY and REQUIRED (after the cussing, crying, questioning, binge watching television shows, eating, hanging out, helping others) that I stop talking (see earlier post: Talking Too Much!!!) and ASK GOD HOW DO I GLORIFY YOU IN THIS SITUATION AS YOU GUIDE ME TOWARD YOUR DIVINE PURPOSE?
I THEN (CONTINUOUSLY WORKING ON CONSISTENCE) WORSHIP AND PRAISE AS I WAIT. In MY WAITING, MY HOW GOD?? IS TRULY BECOMING WOW, GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and WOW, GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENSURES THAT…………….
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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