I, too have been hurt in various and varied ways. And the hurt caused pain. The intensity of the pain varied. The pain from being hurt has caused me to laugh out loud and at myself (self-inflicted). The pain from being hurt has caused me to use some VIVID language and expressions (watch your language young lady). The pain from hurt has caused me to shed a few tears knowingly and unknowlingly (not a characteristic of a INDEPENDENT, STRONG, BLACK, CHRISTIAN WOMAN). The pain from being hurt has caused me to cry uncontrollably (new word) and weep as if ALL was lost. The pain from being hurt has IMMOBILIZED me more times and in more ways than I care to admit.
The pain from being hurt has made me change my hair length, color and style (new look new me, NO MORE PAIN-lying to myself and hiding from myself). The pain from being hurt has many times than I care to mention alter my skirt, nail and heel lengths. The pain from being hurt has expanded my waist line, depleted my bank account and increased my tolerance for certain adult beverages and other people’s foolishness. The pain from being hurt has caused me to lose my intregrity, lower my expectations, compromise my values and question my GOD.
This is not a BLAME post and I discuss who and what caused me pain ( I have caused pain as well).I am NOT describing my pain level on a scale of 1-10. LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR-PAIN is INEVITABLE in some form or the other.
I experience knee pain and it hurts. SOMETIMES the pain shoots through the knees at the most INOPPORTUNE times (working, walking, BEING). Oh, my knee!!!!! I WOULD complain, complain, complain, complain until I was told that someone I knew EXPERIENCES CHRONIC PAIN: CHRONIC PAIN-PERSISTENT PAIN. I had to step back (SLOWLY DUE TO THE KNEES) and assess HOW the Pain was impacting my life and WHAT could I do to get rid of or LESSEN the PAIN.
I researched and discovered that eating certain foods could lessen the pain. I no longer quench my thirst with an ice cold RC COLA (WITH A TINGE OF FROZEN ICE IN IT). I AM CURRENTLY DRINKING THE LAST VESTIGES OF GOOD KOOL-AID (REAL, REAL SWEET-moving to Stevia according to MY FOOD plan) and EARNESTLY wanting Sweet Tea JUST on Sundays (will TREAT myself, Holiday, FOR REAL LAST TIME). I am excersing to get the excessive weight off the knees. I am also considering surgery (Meniscus) as THE LAST option in hopes of stopping or lessening the pain.
None of the aforementioned options GUARANTEE that I will be PAIN free. It is possible that I may have to LIVE with THIS PAIN (KNEE PAIN, LIFE’S PAIN-YOU KNOW THORN IN THE FLESH PAIN) AND I AM LEARNING to declare a WOW GOD!!!!!!!! (SEE EARLIER POST). I may be in PAIN and WOW GOD!!!!!!!! I AM NOT SUFFERINIG. I have discovered that “….SUFFERING is a choice….”
SUFFERING IS DEFINED AS ALLOWING, TOLERATING OR BEING WILLING TO ENDURE ANY DISTRESS. I AM SO DONE WITH BEING FIXATED NOT ONLY ON THE PAIN THAT WAS CAUSED BUT ALSO BEING FIXATED ON THE SITUATION AND THE PEOPLE WHO WERE INVOLVED; I AM SO DONE WITH BEING IMMOBILZED AND STAGNANT DUE TO THE PAIN THAT HAS ALREADY BEEN INFLICTED.
I CHOOSE NOT TO SUFFER. YES, IT HURTS (I AM NO LONGER ASHAMED OF BEING IN PAIN) AND I AM OFTEN REMINDED OF IT; MOST TIMES OUT OF MALICE (“….the enemy SEEKS TO STEAL, KILL AND DESTROY…”)
I AM NOT JUST “…SPEAKING LIFE…” I AM LIVING LIFE…the LIFE that GOD has PURPOSED for me. REMEMBER CALVARY-JESUS WILLINGLY ENDURED (HE SUFFERED) and this is the reason that I can say with confidence and boldness……
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
INREALTIME
inrealtimeblog 