Last night I had the extreme pleasure of watching a performance of Lauryn Hill on PBS-Channel 1o y’all. She, of course,HAD to sing the famous Killing Me Softly (Roberta Flack). I love that song, the arrangement, the words……
“…I felt all flushed with fever, embarrassed by the crowd,
I felt he found my letters and read each one out loud.
I prayed that he would finish, but he just kept right on…TELLING MY WHOLE LIFE….KILLING ME SOFTLY….SINGING MY LIFE WITH HIS WORDS”
Yesterday, I attended a family conference at Brown Baptist Church: The Subcontractor, Counting the Cost, and Make It Beautiful. All excellent for the WORD.
In all three of the classes-I felt HE found my letters and read each one out loud. In ALL three classes I could not “HOLD my Mule”. GOD was telling my WHOLE LIFE…killing me softly…
HE was reminding me of the PURPOSE, HIS PURPOSE, and how gentle(merciful) HE IS as HE reads my letters (pain, struggles, growth, triumphs, healing) out loud. l, THANKS to the POWER OF GOD, AM NO LONGER embarrassed by the crowd. I NOW REFUSE to PRETEND that I have it together. I NOW REFUSE to DIE as I LIVE AS IF EVERYTHING IS ALL RIGHT. I NOW REFUSE to want validation from others than SALVATION/DELIVERANCE by GOD. I NOW REFUSE to wipe MY tears when I am crying due to joy, pain or growth. I NOW REFUSE to WAIT for the PRAISE TEAM/PASTOR/SONG/DELIVERANCE TO WORSHIP GOD. I NOW REFUSE to deny the power of GOD’S WORD in all areas of my life.
IT IS HIS WORD that SUSTAINS ME for it is “…killing ME….” HIS WORD reassures me that…
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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