Last night prior to going to bed has been like other times in my life in which I KNEW that I was to pray (I still pray on my knees before bed). Just like the other times, last night I could not think of anything to say to EXPRESS TO LORD HOW GREAT HE IS AND HOW GRATEFUL I AM (STILL NOT ENOUGH FOR WHO HE IS). I even expressed to the LORD that IT was not that I didn’t know what to say and the order (Thanksgiving/Worshipping, Repentance, Request) in which to say it in. I wanted to make sure that my prayers were authentic and not ritualistic (order of prayer).
I KNOW THAT I COULD HAVE SHOUTED HALLEJUAH AND IT WOULD BE PRAISE TO GOD. BUT IT WOULD HAVE FELT RITUALISTIC. I KNOW THAT I COULD HAVE SAID THANK YOU UNTIL I HAD FALLEN TO SLEEP, BUT IT WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ENOUGH AND WOULD HAVE FELT RITUALISTIC.
YES, the HOLY SPIRIT BROUGHT TO MY REMEMBRANCE OF MY MANY BLESSINGS, DELIVERANCE, STRENGTHEN, MY JOY (THE WORLD SHONUFF TRIED TO TAKE AND IT WAS WORTH EVERYTHING TO HAVE IT FILLED AGAIN) AND MY PEACE. AND YET, NOTHING. IT FELT THAT THE PRAYER AND THE SHOUTING WOULD HAVE FELT RITUALISTIC. I TRIED TO CONJURE UP OLD HURT AND PAIN SO THAT I COULD CRY, SHOUT AND REALLY PRAY AND THANK GOD (…WHOM THE SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED).. NOTHING
As THE HOLY SPIRIT continue to bring to my rememberance, HE (HOLY SPIRIT) ALSO reminding me of some hymns “….if I can’t say a word, I’ll JUST WAVE MY Hand….”
WAVING MY HAND when there are NO WORDS; WAVING MY HAND even when WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH. GOD IS SO….. ((I AM WAVING MY HANDS) THAT THE COMFORTER, THE HOLY SPIRIT, INTERCEDES ON MY BEHALF AND EXPRESS TO GOD THE WAVING OF MY HANDS. GLORY TO GOD.
So if anyone sees me WAVING MY HAND, it’s conveying the GOODNESS of my HOLY, GLORIOUS, MIGHTY, WONDERFUL, DELIVERING, SUSTAINING, PROVIDING, STRENGTHEN, JOY AND PEACE GIVING AND LIVING GOD.
HE LOVES me in SPITE of ME and that it is the reason that I can say with confidence and boldness……
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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