With the LORD’S Blessing, I will be a YEAR BETTER on Tuesday, February 28. Yes, I AM graying, been there, still THERE and will STAY THERE, except for the 1B Rinse that covers it TEMPORARY (I got from my Momma). Yes, I HAVE joined, but still REFUSE to stand in solidarity with the BIFOCAL Nation (still struggling with VANITY issues as I make my way to Dollar Tree to buy reading glasses).
I AM no longer trying to KICK IT. I AM NO LONGER TRYING TO BE on FLEEK. I AM NO LONGER TRYING TO GET ‘TURNT, I AM NO LONGER TRYING TO GET LIT. I DON’T CARE TO BE ‘BOUT IT, ‘BOUT IT or LEAN BACK (OLD SCHOOL HIP-HOP References).
PLEASE NOTE: IF your gathering starts around 8:30 pm. I will be there ON TIME (that means 8:30, not AROUND 8:30ish, say 9:00 pm) BECAUSE I WILL BE LEAVING AROUND 10:00-10:15 pm. The Gathering SPELL is undone @11:00 pm. At 11:00 pm, the hair (the SALON FAIRIES CREATED AN EXQUISITE MASTERPIECE THAT SURELY TURNED HEAD) is in rollers (not curlers, ROLLERS and tied down), my trendy OUTFIT TURNS INTO A NIGHT GOWN (pajamas in the winter), MY Shoes become my comfortable, NEEDED and SHOULDA bought a NEW PAIR months ago house shoes. My car becomes a bed AND I AM SOUND ASLEEP. ASLEEP!!!!!!
Sorry for the TANGEYNT (NEW WORD- I spelled it correctly-Tangey went on a tangent, hence TANGEYNT).
February 28 is day for the culminating (yes, educators, I said or typed, in this case, culminating) celebrations and activities. For every day in CHRIST, we get better. Every day, there are new GRACES and MERCIES. Every day, GOD PROVES HIMSELF TO HIS PEOPLE (HE SHOULDN’T HAVE TO FOR HE HAS PROVED HIS FAITHFULNESS).
It took time to get to the place where I saw the BLESSINGS and MIRACLES of GOD daily and continuously. I was too caught up in BEING whatever, whenever to whomever. As the old saying goes, I went WAY TOO FAR and Stayed WAY TOO LONG. I WAS, AS I SAID BEFORE, TOO BUSY DOING NOTHING.
It was during my quad-life crisis (age 25-32), when I began to assess and stress over my life and lack thereof. I was not married; I did not have 2.5 kids. I did not have a college education. I WAS STILL AT HOME WITH MY MOMMA. I changed jobs; I moved out of my momma’s house, I enrolled in college. I began doing MY thang. Living, so I thought, the LIFE. I was KICKING IT, I was ON FLEEK, I was TURNT, I was GETTING LIT, and I WAS ‘BOUT IT, ‘BOUT IT as I was LEANING BACK AND I ACCUMULATED MUCH DEBT (TRYING TO IMPRESS PEOPLE-SHOULD HAVE USED IT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD)
During this time, I blamed my momma (textbook) for everything that I thought was wrong in my life and with my life. Her choices were the reason I was not yet married; her choices were the reason I did not have kids; her choices were reason I did not have a college education. I didn’t go home much and I lived less than 3 miles away. I was too busy LIVING, so I thought, LIFE. This was the time when I took time for granted. I had to catch up. I didn’t have time and didn’t make time for family. I was too busy, again trying to be whatever, whenever to whomever.
BLESS the LORD-As I went through the motions of being whatever, whenever to whomever-HE was CALLING ME. HE WAS SHOWING ME THAT FAMILY WAS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. HE SHOWED ME THERE WAS NOT A NEED THAT MY FAMILY DID NOT TRY TO HELP ME WITH. THEY WITHHELD NOTHING FROM ME.
IN HINDSIGHT, I LACKED NOTHING. THERE WAS NOTHING FOR ME TO REALLY DESIRE. I HAD EVERYTHING THAT MATTER-GOD, HIS LOVE FOR ME, (CHASTISEMENT AND ALL), MY FAMILY, AND MY FRIENDS. I stopped waiting on February 28 to celebrate my birthday. If I wanted Catfish Cabin, I went to Catfish Cabin. If I wanted Red Lobster, I went to Red Lobster. If I wanted to celebrate and fellowship with family and friends, I called them up and we got together. If I wanted a new dress, new purse and several pairs of new shoes, I purchased them.
It was during this time, I tried to apologize to my momma for being absent (I was less than 3 miles away) from the family. She would not let me utter a word. She just hugged me and told me that everything was fine. She never brought up my absence. THIS IS WHERE GOD opened my eyes to HIS BRAND NEW MERCIES. MOMMA WAS DOING FOR ME WHAT GOD HAD DONE FOR HER AND WHAT HE DOES FOR ALL OF US-HE DOES NOT BRING UP OUR PAST, OUR FAULTS, HE DOES NOT ALLOW US TO LIVE IN CHAINS AND IN SHAME. IT WAS LOST IN THE SEA OF FORGETFULNESS. WHAT A WONDERFUL, LOVING, MERCIFUL GOD.
On February 28, 1970, The LORD blessed me with Walter Lee Skinner and the love of my life, my muse, Dorothy Mae Skinner, my beloved momma. Prior to her passing and after I returned home, we would spend my birthday together. I would take a personal day, go swimming (one of my prayer closets and thank GOD for my family) and then spend the day with my momma. Whatever she wanted to do on my birthday, IT was fine by me. I gave her gifts on my birthday. I was blessed with her and wanted to celebrate my blessing, my momma.
Now that she is present with the LORD, I STILL CELEBRATE my birthday, my blessings: Walter and Dorothy Skinner. I started with having weekend celebrations (not my idea, but an excellent one nevertheless), then I moved to having a birthday calendar with various activities. It was to celebrate life with those who desired to celebrate with me. I didn’t want gifts (I will take them) and I wanted to celebrate and share the LORD, “…Silver and Gold have I NONE; but such as I have give I thee; ….In the name of JESUS CHRIST of Nazareth rise up and walk…” in HIS JOY, in HIS POWER, in HIS DELIVERANCE, in HIS HEALING, in HIS PEACE and in HIS LOVE.
IN OTHER WORDS “…PARTY OVER HERE…AND THANK GOD, HE LOVES me in SPITE of ME and that it is the reason that I can say with confidence and boldness……
…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”
Tangey V.
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