This morning I am grappling with my “feelings“. Not the warm and fuzzy “feelings“ nor the “something” good is happening “feelings“. I being pulled by the “feelings“ that can and will and have led to possible mayhem, chaos, confusion and destruction.
I don’t “feel” like sharing this morning. I “feel” as if it is too early (even though I started an hour later due to logistics). I “feel“ that I have nothing to share since I am IN IT (LIFE IS HAPPENING) and I am OVERWHELMED in many areas (REPENTED THIS MORNING FOR NOT CASTING ALL MY CARES).
I don’t “feel” like talking (typing in this case). I am “feeling” overwhelmed with the whole process of conversating. You know listening, processing what you heard and responding. Lately, in the majority of my conversations, I have been CUSSPONDING (new word-when you response is laden with cuss words, yes cuss words). OVERWHELMED AND FRUSTRATED and CUSSPONDING).
Not only have I not been earnestly listening, I have been bulldozing the conversation because of my “feelings“. CUSSPRESSING (new word-when your responses and statements are laden with cuss words.) how I really “felt“ and most times I “felt” like I said nothing at all.
I dont’ and didn’t feel anything about Trump getting COVID-19. I didn’t go to the safe “I don’t wish nothing bad on nobody…but…” (YOU KNOW HOW WE DO). I made a few CUSSTAMENTS (new word-when you statements on the topic is laden with cuss words) and I still don’t “feel” anything. I could be on, NO I AM on the verge of not giving a CARE (safe word). I have informed you all of my CURRENT STATE OF EXPRESSION, CORRECTION, CUSSPRESSIONS (new word-when you respond with cuss words see CUSSPONSES AND CUSSTATMENTS).
I AM neither proud nor ashamed of how I “feel“ about anything that includes Trump. It is all part of the process of being “…Presented FAULTLESS before HIS PRESENCE…” I AM and have REPENTED on being caught up and guided by my “feelings“.
I “FEEL“, therefore I CUSSPOND (new word-when you respond with cuss words). TRUST ME, I AM NOT proud of my CURRENT STATE OF CUSSPRESSION. GOD IS NOT GLORIFIED IN THAT!!!!
I “FEEL“, therefore I CUSSPOND PROVES that I AM STILL TRYING TO OPERATE IN MY OWN STRENGTH. HAVE MERCY LORD!!!
I “FEEL“, therefore I CUSSPOND PROVES that I AM LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING. HAVE MERCY LORD!!!!
I “FEEL“, therefore I CUSSPOND PROVES THE FAITHFULNESS, GRACEFULNESS, MERCIFULNESS OF GOD!!!!
IT IS because of GOD’S MERCIFULNESS that I don’t “FEEL” BUT KNOW that
“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…”
TANGEY V.
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