There is a lot to share this morning. However, what to share is the question in which I do not have an answer. Life IS SHONUFF HAPPENING. TALK ABOUT INREALTIME. There is so much that is going on that I don’t know what to handle, tackle, address, deal with, get over, work on, or ignore first. I know that I have NOT being praying about it like I should.
WHAT??-NOT PRAYING ABOUT-WHO DOES THAT? WHO GOES THROUGH LIFE DEALING WITH ALL KINDS OF ISSUES AND SITUATIONS AND NOT PRAY ABOUT IT? WHO TRIES TO WORK THINGS OUT ON THEIR OWN (“…LEAN NOT TO THINE OWN UNDERSTANDING…)? WHO CONTINUES TO LOSE SLEEP OVER DECISIONS THAT MUST BE MADE? WHO CONTINUES TO WORRY ABOUT THEIR CHILDREN AND/OR FAMILY? WHO CONTINUES TO WORRY ABOUT FINANCES? WHO CONTINUES TO WORRY ABOUT THEIR HEALTH? WHO CONTINUES TO THINK THAT GOD HAS NOT AND WILL NOT DELIVER YOU? HEAL YOU, PROVIDE FOR YOU, PROTECT YOU, LOVE YOU, BE FAITHFUL TOWARD YOU, EXTEND HIS GRACE TO YOU, DISPENSE HIS FAVOR TO YOU AND BE MERCIFUL TOWARDS YOU? WHO DOES THAT?
BEING HONEST, IT IS I SAID (TYPED IN THIS CASE), THE CHRISTIAN WHO KNOWS THAT GOD DOES AND WILL TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN. IT IS I, WHO KNOWS THAT IF I CALL HIS NAME (IT WORKS), MY ANXIETIES SUBSIDES, IT IS I WHO TRULY KNOWS THAT GOD IS HEALING, DELIVERING, PROTECTING, PROVIDING, FAITHFUL, GRACEFUL, FULL OF FAVOR AND WORSHIP HIM FOR HE IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL, GRACEFUL AND MERCIFUL AND EXTENDS HIS FAVOR TO HIS PEOPLE.
I was teaching from home and it is a BLESSING and it is also EXTREMELY overwhelming. A blessing because many people still are not working and overwhelming due to work/life balance and the work required to provide quality instruction online. In addition to writing lesson plans for both synchronous (teacher lead) and asynchronous (recorded lessons by teacher), I was dealing hackers and slackers while trying to teach myself and my scholars how to navigate the various learning platforms.
Grading issues with missing and incomplete work, calling and responding to parents correspondence about their scholar’s attendance and grades continuously WAS CAUSING ANXIETY. Calling parents AGAIN concerning their scholar’s attendance and grades continuously ADDED MORE STRES AND ANXIETY. Directives from administration concerning lesson plans, instruction, attendance and grades were constant (ALL IN A DAY’S WORK).
I was so overwhelmed that I COULD NOT remember how to “TEACH” (still questioning my effectiveness). I was so overwhelmed that I COULD NOT write a lesson plan. We have a slide deck that must be created weekly for daily instruction. It has a template with INSTRUCTIONS. THEY WERE DIFFICULT TO COMPLETE BECAUSE I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT WAS ASKING.
I HAVE DONE SEVERAL SLIDE DECKS SINCE AUGUST 3, 2020 (FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR ME) AND HAD DONE OKAY WITH THEM. One week, I WENT BLANK. I COULD NOT THINK. I TRIED TO USE MY PREVIOUS SLIDE DECKS AS A GUIDE. IT DID NOT WORK. I COULD NOT PROCESS. MY MIND WENT BLANK. I HELD MY HEAD IN MY HAND AND STARED AT THE MONITOR, THEN I CLOSED MY EYES. THERE WERE NO THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND. IT WAS BLANK. BLANK. I WAS AND STILL AM OVERWHELMED.
ALTHOUGH I AM OVERWHELMED, I WILL TELL YOU WHAT I’M NOT GON’ DO!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP SEEKING GOD!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP PRAISING GOD!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP WORSHIPPING GOD!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP HONORING HIM WITH MY LIFE (WORDS AND DEEDS)!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP GLORIFYING GOD!!!!
I AM NOT GON’ STOP TRUSTING GOD!!!!
WHAT I’M NOT GON’ DO IS FORGET TO DECLARE THAT
“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…”
TANGEY V.
INREALTIME
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