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I am sitting here WAITING to share-WHAT I don’t KNOW. I pray prior to every post and ask the HOLY SPIRIT “WHAT I am I to share today?”. I don’t KNOW yet. There are many things (too many in my current state), that I would like to share. I have a list of phrases from various sources: conversations with family and friends, sermons, listing to music, text messages. Those phrases, powerful thought-provoking phrases, beseech me to immediately add them to “the list”, an actual list of phrases that I jot down, for a more in-depth analysis of my current state of being. THIS IS INREALTIME.

Yet, as I mentioned in the first paragraph I am WAITING for the big REVEAL, “What I am to share today?” NOTHING. I have been sitting here WAITING and NOTHING. Paraphrasing Sgt. Schultz from Hogan Heroes who often declared to his prisoners and commanding officers that he knew NOTHING. I GOT NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING!!!!

It is not that GOD is not BLESSING me. Please KNOW and UNDERSTAND that IT IS THE LORD’S BLESSINGS THAT I NOW ENJOY (WOULDN’T MIND HEARING SOME TRADITIONAL, FOOT STOPPING, KNEE BENT, BODY BOWED GOSPEL MUSIC AT THIS MOMENT). I KNOW that my prayer was HEARD and GOD IS ALWAYS WORKING on my behalf. BLESS GOD, that I NO LONGER FRET and BECOME DISCOURAGED WHEN THEY (GOD via the HOLY SPIRIT) ENGAGE me (UNKNOWINGLY AND UNWILLINGLY) in the “QUIET GAME“. My SENSE of and NEED for URGENCY CLASHED with GOD’S TIMING.

The “QUIET GAME” is where I pray and RECEIVE NOTHING at that moment. It is when NOTHING: NO REVELATION of WHAT IS or WHAT’S TO COME; NO CONFIRMATION that I am DOING WHAT HE ASKS and DESIRES of me: NO INDICATION of WHAT to DO and HOW to do or IF WHAT I AM DOING IS IN HIS PLAN FOR ME. NOTHING!!!! NOTHING!!!! NOTHING!!!!

BLESS GOD for “THE QUIET GAME“. As a sibling, aunt, friend and teacher I have often engaged many in the “THE QUIET GAME.”. COME ON THROUGH, HOLY SPIRIT. I have been asked for advice or insight on a situation (I KNOW NOTHING!!!!). I allow the person to come to his or her own understanding via my silence (I am ACTUALLY praying, asking GOD’S for HIS ADVICE because I KNOW NOTHING!!!!). I KNOW that he or she is grappling with some life-changing and life-altering decisions. I KNOW that people (myself including) are trying to make sense of it all: choices, impact and purpose while maintaining and thriving in their current lot. PLEASE KNOW THAT IT IS OVERWHELMING!!!!

NOTHING!!!! I have NOTHING because I am STILL OVERWHELMED as I declared in previous posts. I have PRAYED, MADE several to-do lists, WORKED the to-do lists, REASSIGNED tasks (I was completing others’ tasks because they were “holding me up”), and PROVIDING feedback with deadlines. I have even COMPLETED major and several tasks on the TO DO LIST and YET, my TO DO LIST (NOT DIFFERENT ONES, THE SAME ONE) appears to be NEVER-ENDING!!!!

I AM OVERWHELMED!!!! THE WORK HAS TO BE DONE, BUT HOW LORD. I CONFESS THAT I AM STRUGGLING WITH “…LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING…AND FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD...”

When I am TIRED AND CAN’T THINK–WHICH is it “…LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING…AND FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD...”?

When I EAT ON THE RUN or SKIP a meal entirely DUE TO MY TASKS, WHICH is it “…LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING…AND FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD…”?

When I CAN’T COMPLETE SIMPLE DAILY TASKS–WHICH is it “…LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING…AND FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD…“?”

As I CONTINUE to LIVE to HONOR GOD in EVERYTHING: WORDS, DEEDS, MANNERISMS, EXPRESSIONS I KNOW there is WORK to be done. All of the WORK will not be pleasant or easy and most of it is tedious. There WILL BE some days in which the tediousness of THE WORK will cause me to Cussponde (Use of cuss words when responding both verbally and nonverbally). Again, Cussponding does not honor GOD. ALL of this happens INREALTIME. So I am keeping it REAL, not 100 but 100,000. I am prone to Cussponding. I AM PRAYING THAT MY CUSSPRESSIONS BE BRIEF. NO, JUST DUMBFOUND ME HOLY SPIRIT SO I CAN’T CUSSPONDE!!!! GOT’S TO DO BETTER.

STILL NOTHING!!!!-NO, JUST NOW-THE HOLY SPIRIT REVEALED THAT I AM SHARING HIS LOVE FOR ME and I quote myself (see paragraph 3), “I KNOW that my prayer was HEARD and GOD IS ALWAYS working on my behalf. BLESS GOD!!!! that I NO LONGER FRET and BECOME DISCOURAGED WHEN THEY (GOD via the HOLY SPIRIT) ENGAGE me (UNKNOWINGLY AND UNWILLINGLY) in “THE QUIET GAME“. My SENSE of and NEED for URGENCY CLASHED with GOD’S TIMING“.

ALTHOUGH I AM OVERWHELMED, I AM NOT OUTDONE. I WILL CONTINUE TO “…STRETCH MY HAND TO THEE…NO OTHER HELP I KNOW.…” I WILL CONTINUE TO BLESS HIS EXCELLENT NAME FOR HE IS WONDERFUL. I WILL BLESS THE LORD AT ALL TIMES...FOR MY LIFE IS NOT MY OWN...BECAUSE I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING. HE IS THE GREAT I AM!!!!!!!

BLESS GOD!!!! THAT I AM OVERWHELMED. THIS ALLOWS ME TO CONTINUOUSLY LIVE IN THE AND WITH THE AWENESS OF GOD. I AM STRENGTHENED AND EMPOWERED VIA THE HOLY SPIRIT IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!!

JESUS!!!!, JESUS!!!!, JESUS!!!!-NOT JUST A PRECIOUS NAME-HE IS MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!!! MY COMFORTER, MY KEEPER, THE LOVER OF MY SOUL!!!!

JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! NOT JUST A PRECIOUS NAME-BUT A HEALING NAME-ALL ARE HEALED IN HIS NAME!!!!

JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! DEMONS FLEE

JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! JESUS!!!! MY LORD AND MY SAVIOR.

AS I BLESS HIS NAME, I AM STILL WAITING ON GOD TO ANSWER MY QUESTIONS “WHICH is it “…LEANING TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING…AND FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD…”?”

AS I BLESS HIS NAME, I AM STILL OVERWHELMED THAT I MUST CONTINUE THE WORK WITH NO IMMEDIATE ANSWER FROM GOD.

AS I BLESS HIS NAME, I AM ALSO OVERWHELMED WITH THE LOVE AND MERCY THAT GOD CONTINUES TO SHOW AND GIVE ME and this is WHY I will not be OUTDONE (NO ROCKS WILL CRY OUT FOR ME) FOR I DECLARE…

…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME

Today’s title comes from “…What a FRIEND we have in JESUS!!!!” Today’s post is an upgrade from a previous post “Worship While, When and Where I Work” It was a play on a song “Whistle while you work”. Today’s title was going to be “Worship While, When and Where You Work-2020 Edition (Pandemic and all).

The previous post (HIGHLIGHTED IN BLUE) starts with me sharing my “extended break” around the Christmas Holiday and how I was focused on “WORKS”. In 2020, the focus is “WORKING” and NOT FOR THE LORD!!!! Remote Learning ( I am still a big fan of it-new skills for me), has consumed TOO MUCH OF MY LIFE. I HATE THE COMPUTER EVEN MORE. I DON’T WANT TO DOWNLOAD, UPLOAD, SUBMIT OR WATCH A VIDEO (CUTE OR FUNNY). I DON’T WANT TO SHOP ONLINE BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO DO IT ON THE COMPUTER!!!!!

I’m back from my rant (above mentioned of the computer). Unlike my previous post “WORSHIP WHILE, WHEN AND WHERE YOU WORK” were I was sharing how I was doing “WORKS” and not WORSHIPPING!!!!

HAVE MERCY LORD!!!! This time I am WORKING and I have allowed WORK to impede my WORSHIP. While preparing for this post (quietly with nothing on my mind), I begin thinking about the work I needed to do so that I can be ready for WORK on Monday morning. THIS MORNING PRIOR TO POSTING I WAS THINKING ABOUT WORK. MY POSTS ARE AN HOMAGE TO GOD ALMIGHTY. MY LORD AND MY SAVIOR AND I AM SAVED IN THE NAME OF JESUS AND I AM THINKING ABOUT WORK!!!!

“…O WHAT PEACE WE FORFEIT…”. SO I AM REPOSTING, BUT INSTEAD OF WORKING ON MYSELF FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD, I WAS WORKING AND NOT WORSHIPPING!!!

“O WHAT PEACE WE FORFEIT.!!!..” HAVE MERCY LORD THAT I AM NOT GIVING YOU EVERYTHING IN PRAYER!!!

I’m BACK. I want to “say” that I was on holiday and did not post anything.  That’s NOT my story and I am NOR sticking to it.  Being on holiday (Christmas break) was and is a plausible reason to take a break. You know family, friends, peace on Earth and good will toward men.  As I type this, I am rationalizing, “GOD….. says that there is a time to rest, and created the Sabbath and HE RESTED.”  For I was truly tried.  NO TIED- T-I-E=D(my word for tired). That’s what I SAID. And it is so far AWAY from the REAL TRUTH.

FOR REAL, FOR REAL-I had overextended and over-committed myself in WORKS. No, this is not “I was so busy helping others that I forgot to do something for myself..” That’s not it at all. I was TOO busy doing and being for MYSELF-not selfishly or narcissistically but really focusing on BEING and DOING what I am PURPOSED FOR.  I was doing the WORK, even the WORK that I abhor (asking GOD for ZEAL in all things for it’s for HIS GLORY).

I was (AM) WORKING SO that I  forgot to WORSHIP.  Oh, I prayed and thanked GOD, but I did not (AM NOT) spend (SPENDING) time, QUALITY time with HIM. You KNOW that time when YOU Can JUST BE!!! NO BIG WORDS needed or DESIRED by HIM, JUST BEING with HIM,  PURPOSEFULLY and INTENTIONALLY BEING WITH HIM. KNOWING how I NEED, DESIRE and WANT TO HONOR GOD IN ALL THINGS, I FORGOT (FORGET) TO WORSHIP. and it showed (IS SHOWING-EXTREMELY AGITATED). I WAS (AM) SO busy WORKING (focusing on BEING and DOING what I am PURPOSED FOR) (NOT THIS TIME, I WAS WORKING MY JOB) that I became (AM) tired and I JUSTIFIED not posting (it was during the holiday and I need a break, (TOO AGITATED TO THINK). WHILE TRYING TO TYPE THINK, I TYPED TEACH-WORKING HAS CONSUMED ME-HELP LORD!!!!!

“…O WHAT PEACE WE FORFEIT…”

I realized that I should have been (SHOULD BE) WORSHIPPING WHILE  I WAS (AM) Working, WORSHIPPING WHEN I WAS (AM) WORKING and WORSHIPPING WHERE I WAS (AM) WORKING.  Had I been (IF I AM) WORSHIPPING, there would have not been a “NEED” for an extended holiday and I would have posted prior to this.

WORSHIP-Balances ME.  WORSHIP Directs ME.  WORSHIP Grounds ME. WORSHIP Humbles ME. WORSHIP Overwhelms ME. WORSHIP Reminds ME…….

HE LOVES me in SPITE of ME and that it is the reason that I can say with confidence and boldness……

…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME

As I sit here THINKING about what to share, there are other things that are vying for my attention. They are the usual: work (I am on Fall Break), THINKING about the chores that need completing and THINKING about how to complete them, THINKING about the the to-do list on my dining room table, THINKING about the the bag of papers that should have been shredded, THINKING about the the refrigerator that should have been cleaned out, THINKING about the the garbage that should have been emptied, THINKING about the the clothes that ARE FOLDED AND NEED TO BE PUT AWAY, THINKING about the the dresser that needs to be purchased so that I can put the clothes away properly, THINKING about the miscellaneous items needed to organize my home and THINKING about the carpet that needs to be shampooed.  What’s for dinner? What am I doing AFTER church? Will I cook breakfast or buy something on the way? TOO MUCH THINKING!!!!

THINKING, if not done in MODERATION, can lead to and cause anxiety, depression, broken relationships, financial distress, isolation from family and friends, addictions of various and varied kinds. THINKING has led to and caused much despair.

THINKING is not a bad thing.  We SHOULD THINK before we speak. We SHOULD THINK about the choices we must make and THINK of the choices that will have the greatest impact on our lives and those around us.  THANK GOD for the ability to THINK.

“…Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, THINK on these things…” PHILIPPIANS 4:8

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO REALIZE THAT GOD IS (WHAT WORD CAN GO THERE FOR ALL THAT HE IS AND ALL THAT HE HAS DONE AND IS DOING AND WILL DO?). 

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO STOP, RAISE MY HANDS AND WORSHIP GOD!!!! 

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO CRY OUT TO THE LORD IN TIMES OF TRAVAIL!!!!

THINKING HAS ALSO CAUSED ME TO CRY OUT TO THE LORD FOR THE PEACE AND JOY THAT HE GIVES ESPECIALLY DURING TIMES OF TRAVAIL!!!!

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO RECEIVE MY HEALING AND MY DELIVERANCE!!!!

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO INTENSIFY THE INTIMACY OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD!!!! 

 THINKING HAS CAUSED ME TO TRUST GOD MORE!!!!

THINKING IS TEACHING ME TOTAL DEPENDENCY ON GOD!!!!

THINKING HAS CAUSED ME  TO KNOW AND BOLDLY DECLARE THAT

“…Nothing will separate ME from the Love of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS….”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME

 

 

 

“…I feel a song in my heart again…” although is the title and a lyric in a song of one of my favorite singers of all time, Gladys Knight, it is not the song that I was singing prior to typing this post.  Uncle Charlie’s, I’m Blessed was the song that I was singing this morning.  I am truly BLESSED. I spent time with my family on yesterday: grocery shopping, being frightened by an almost 2-year-old who screams from excitement (He is a happy, stubborn baby), caring for my Aunt Carrie, seeing pictures of the Champ in his soccer uniform and hearing of how his day went with his team.  Talking with family and friends and knowing that they are doing better and watching NETFLIX.

I didn’t wake up singing Uncle Charlie’s, I’m Blessed. I woke up NEEDING WD-40 for my stiff joints and thinking of WHAT NEEDED TO BE done and HOW WILL IT GET DONE BEING THAT IS JUST  ME.  I was not FEELING getting out of bed this morning AND I WOKE UP 10 minutes prior to the alarm.  I was going there-LORD, I AM tired.  LORD, I don’t FEEL (fill in the blank or blanks). LORD!!!! LORD!!!! LORD!!!! 

This is the song that I was singing (IN THE KEY OF UNCLE CHARLIE)

Ask me HOW I’m DOING-I’m STRESSED, YES

LIVING moments of REGRETS

The FROWN on my face-I’m like oh

YES, I’m STRESSED YES, I’m STRESSED

I’m STRESSED YES, I’m STRESSED

Although EVERYTHING is GOING my way (“…ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER...”)

There are TOO MANY days that GO BY 

WHEN I DON’T THANK THE LORD up above

And if you wondering WHY  I’m QUESTIONING MY life

Come close and I’ll TELL you what’s up

Ask me HOW I’m doing-I’m STRESSED, YES

LIVING moments of REGRETS–

The FROWN on my face-I’m like oh

YES, I’m STRESSED YES, I’m STRESSED

I’m STRESSED YES, I’m STRESSED

AGAIN, I GOT CAUGHT UP IN MY FEELINGS.  I DON’T FEEL LIKE DOING NOTHING.  I DON’T FEEL THAT I CAN DO IT ANYMORE. I FEEL AS IF THE TIME HAS PASSED ME BY.  I FEEL LIKE I NEED A COKE AND SOME OATMEAL ARCHWAY COOKIES (HOLD THE RAISINS PLEASE). I FEEL…I FEEL…I FEEL…I FEEL…I FEEL…I FEEL…

THANK GOD FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT!!!!  FOR I FELT THE CHASTISEMENT OF THE LORD FOR BEING CAUGHT UP IN MY FEELINGS.  SO FOR OLD TIME, CLICHÉ SAKE, I’M TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED.

I FEEL A SONG IN MY HEART AGAIN (“…CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART AND RENEW THE RIGHT SPIRIT IN ME…).

“…Ain’t a day go by, that I don’t try
To THANK the LORD up above
And if you wonder WHY I’m LOVIN’ life
Come close and I’ll TELL you what’s up (Listen)

Ask me HOW I’m doing, I’m BLESSED, YES
LIVING every moment, no regrets
SMILE up on my face, I’m like oh
YES, I’m BLESSED YES, I’m BLESSED, YES
Ask me HOW I’m DOING, I’m BLESSED YES
LIVING every moment no regrets
SMILE up on my face, I’m like oh
YES, I’m BLESSED YES, I’m BLESSED, YES…”

I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! I’M BLESSED!!!! 

I’M BLESSED!!!! AND THIS IS WHY I CAN BOLDY DECLARE THAT…

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V.

INREALTIME

I have just had a HOLY GHOST INTERVENTION (an instant revelation of the WHAT and WHY that you are currently experiencing–MY WORD AND MY DEFINITION).  As I was writing (typing) a whole different topic/subject, I was INSTRUCTED to share this blog. HUH???? OKAY THEN.  HUH expresses a lack of understanding or amazement.  OKAY THEN.  (Tmod-Tangey’s modified definition) is the resolve to do the work even when you don’t understand it AND ESPECIALLY when you don’t want to DO IT !!!!

I am in the HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase of my life with GOD.  The HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase is way past the WHO GOD (YOU)? WHAT (PURPOSE)? and WHY (GOD’S GLORY)? phase.   It is the interval between the HOW (WOW GOD!!!!) and WHEN (TIME? TO GOD) phase.  It is the phase where I am NOT QUESTIONING GOD as MUCH. It is the phase where I am NOT RESISTING GOD as MUCH.  It is the phase where I AM  NOT ONLY DESIRING AND LEARNING BUT EARNESTLY WORKING TO HONOR GOD IN and WITH  MY life.  HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase comes before COMPLETELY TRUSTING GOD.

In the HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase I STILL have questions. I STILL have doubts. I STILL REPENT FOR THOSE DOUBTS.  NO, I DON’T SAY, GOD I DON’T BELIEVE YOU OR TRUST YOU. BUT I AM DRINKING COKES AND TEA DURING THE WEEK.  I HAVE GIVEN IT TO GOD, SO I SAY AND YET, I AM NOT RESTING AND I AM IRRITABLE. I WANT TO STAY AT HOME AND IN THE BED.

The HUH???? OKAY THEN.phase is where I am learning to COMPLETELY TRUST GOD as I FEAR what I am dealing with as HE REVEALS HIS POWER as I DO THE WORK WAITING. 

The HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase is where I am learning to COMPLETELY TRUST GOD as I fear what I am dealing with as HE REVEALS HIS POWER as I DO THE WORK CRYING. 

The HUH???? OKAY THEN. phase is where I am learning to COMPLETELY TRUST GOD as I fear what I am dealing with as HE REVEALS HIS POWER as I DO THE WORK PRAISING AND WORSHIPPING HIM. 

Surprisingly my fears and doubts are not about my current state.  The INTANGIBLES OF GOD are MANIFESTING. I KNOW that things are SHIFTING. I AM WORKING WHILE WAITING ON THE PROMISES OF GOD.  I CONTINUE TO CRY WHILE WAITING ON THE PROMISES OF GOD.  I CONTINUE TO  PRAISE  AND WORSHIP GOD WHILE WAITING ON THE PROMISES OF GOD.  

IN THE HUH???? OKAY THEN. PHASE GOD IS ERASING ALL OF  MY DOUBTS AND ALL MY OF FEARS.  I AM BEING ELEVATED FROM BUT GOD TO  NOW GOD!!!!

” ….NOW UNTO HIM THAT IS ABLE to KEEP you FROM FALLING, and to PRESENT you FAULTLESS BEFORE THE PRESENCE of HIS GLORY with EXCEEDING JOY, 

25 To the ONLY WISE GOD OUR SAVIOR, be GLORY and MAJESTY, DOMINION AND POWER BOTH NOW AND EVER.

AMEN….”

AND THIS IS WHY I CAN BOLDY DECLARE THAT…

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V.

INREALTIME

WHEWWOW (new word) is my present state.  WHEW IS used to express strong emotion, such as relief or amazement. WOW IS an exclamation of surprise, wonder, pleasure, or the like.  WHEWWOW!!!! LIFE IS HAPPENING!!!! WHEWWOW!!!! 

I, no different from most, AM TIDE, YES TIDE.  I AM TOO TIDE TO REST. My mind is not listening to my body as it aches. My joints are sore and have stiffened, including my ankles.  My ankles have never ached before.  MY ANKLES?!!!!.  My appetite is waning, my weight is fluctuating, my energy is depleted AND my attention span (there are no words). WHEWWOW!!!!

Yet as LIFE IS HAPPENING!!!! GOD IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL AND A PRESENT HELP!!!! I AM NO LONGER FRETTING OVER MY ANKLES ACHING OR MUCH OF ANYTHING ELSE.  (YES, I DID SAY AND I AM HONEST ABOUT GIVING GOD MUCH, SOME OR EVEN MOST OF MY CARES.   HE IS STILL TEACHING ME HOW TO GIVE HIM EVERYTHING-NOT MUCH OF THEM, OR SOME OF THEM AND MOST OF THEM, HE WANTS THEM ALL HENCE THE TITLE AND NEW WORD-WHEWWOW!!!!

The HOLY SPIRIT continuously reminds me of GOD’S BLESSINGS AND FAVOR OVER MY LIFE.  Before I can wring my hands with worry, the HOLY SPIRIT reminds me that my hands are to be lifted up to PRAISE and WORSHIP GOD IN ALL THINGS.  WHEWWOW!!!!

Although my body aches INCLUDING MY ANKLES (MY ANKLES?!!!!) and my energy is waning and my mind appears to operate as if it is an express train to nowhere, I have been able to not just maintain, I have been thriving.  It is NOT me. IT IS ALL GOD.  GLORY TO GOD.  I AM NO LONGER CONCERNED WITH HOW HE DOES IT. I AM STILL LEARNING NOT TO ASK,  “WHEN WILL HE DO IT?”.  I THANK GOD THAT I HAVE ARRIVED AT THE “HE WILL DO IT!!!!”.  WHEWWOW!!!!

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V

INREALTIME

AT THIS VERY MOMENT ( as I type) I am extremely calm and it is extremely quiet and still.  I have learned to LOVE and ENJOY extreme quiet and stillness.  IT REMINDS ME OF THE AWENESS (EXEMPLIFYING STATE  OF AWE) OF GOD.  HE IS ALWAYS WORKING.    I no longer want to KNOW HOW GOD is WORKING. I am learning to let HIM do HIM.  I am learning to stop fretting over the WHEN. Fretting over the WHEN causes me great anxiety, which then leads to tension in my neck and back, weight gain, irritability and insomnia.

Since I don’t REALLY drink (4-5 times a year) and I abhor smoke, I would drown my sorrows in sweet tea (not flavored, not with a lemon, not VIP-I am a purist when it comes to tea), Big K cola, cream and sugar (coffee-I like a little coffee in my cream and sugar), Archway Oatmeal cookies (no raisins, hold the ice), salty potato chips: sour cream and onion, Kettle’s Sea Salt and Vinegar, jalapeno Cheetos. I had ALLOWED my CONCERNS to become WORRIES which THEN became bigger than my GOD. Instead of seeing the manifestation of GOD, I manifested (gained weight) as I TRUSTED (REALLY????) and WAITED on GOD.

THANK GOD for the HOLY SPIRIT.  For the sweet tea, Big K Cola, and cream and sugar don’t taste the same.  The soft Archway cookies provide NO comfort and they don’t taste the same. I even GOT TIRED of mindlessly eating chips.  I would begin eating them and then throw almost a whole bag the garbage (poured them out of the bag). I was WASTING resources (health, energy, money) that would be NEEDED WHEN my DELIVERANCE, my BREAKTHROUGH,  my MIRACLE came.  My DELIVERANCE, my BREAKTHROUGH,  my MIRACLE  were not and are not in the bottom of a bag (family size) of chips.  

The following passages are from Philippians 1:12-14, 21 (Easy to Read Version).  It is concerning the Apostle Paul who is in prison and he sends a letter to the church of Phillipi to encourage them to continue the work of CHRIST.

12 Brothers and sisters, I want you to know that all that has happened to me has helped to spread the GOOD NEWS. 13 All the Roman guards and all the others here know that I am in prison for serving CHRIST. 14 My being in prison has caused most of the believers to put their trust in the LORD and to show more courage in telling people GOD’S message.

20 I am full of hope and feel sure I will not have any reason to be ashamed. I am certain I will continue to have the same boldness to speak freely that I always have. I will let GOD use my life to bring more honor to CHRIST. It doesn’t matter whether I live or die

This passage resonated with me. BLESS GOD, For I was in a car accident on 7-20-19 on Germantown Parkway and my car was totaled and I AM WELL.  Like Paul, I am not going into any details about what happened.  I KNOW THAT GOD IS GETTING HIS GLORY.  FOR I AM TOTALLY DEPENDING ON AND TRUSTING IN GOD.  MY SITUATION, NOT JUST THE CAR ACCIDENT, BUT ALL THAT I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH, HAS CAUSED MANY TO DRAW CLOSER AND TRUST GOD.

I AM NOT ASHAMED THAT I DON’T HAVE A CAR. I AM NOT ASHAMED THAT I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL THE BANKRUPTCY COURT DISCHARGE MY CASE BEFORE I CAN GET ANOTHER CAR. I AM NOT ASHAMED OR ABOVE RIDING THE BUS TO WINCHESTER AND HACKS CROSSING AND THEN GETTING A CO-WORKER TO PICK ME UP  AND DROP ME OFF AT THE MCDONALD’S ON HACKS CROSSING.  I HAVE FAVOR AND THE GRACE OF GOD ON MY LIFE.

I AM OVERWHELMED BY THE AWENESS OF GOD.  I OFTEN FIND MYSELF SHAKING MY HEAD AND WAVING MY HAND WHILE CRYING AND CRYING OUT. THANK GOD FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT WHO INTERCEDES AND INTERPRETS THE SHAKING OF MY AND AND THE WAVING OF MY HAND. I HAVE FAVOR AND THE GRACE OF GOD ON MY LIFE.

THE AWENESS OF GOD IS WHY I BOLDY DECLARE THAT:

“…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS….”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME

 

As I was descending the stairs to share (should I be rocking the microphone? stairs, share-they rhyme), I was thinking not about what had happened on yesterday (7-20-19-wreck on Germantown Parkway), I was thinking on how BLESSED I am.  There was slight damage to my car (I was hit from behind) and I am doing fine.  I had some slight aches last night and this morning.  I pray that if they are from the accident that GOD reveals it to me (I am aging like a fine wine and not stinky cheese).

As I stated in the previous paragraph, I AM BLESSED.  I was thinking that I should be shouting, dancing and running due to the GOODNESS of the LORD (thinking only of the accident that I was in on yesterday, 7-20-19).  The HOLY GHOST immediately revealed to me that yesterday was not the first, only time and last time that GOD has or will BLESS me.  I began to say the following: LORD, I should STAY singing; LORD, I should STAY shouting;  LORD, I should STAY dancing; LORD, I should STAY waving my hands; LORD, I should STAY, “…STAND STILL AND SEE THE SALVATION OF THE LORD…”.

STAY (slang) is commonly used to describe someone or something that habitually repeats the same action. GOD STAY BLESSING; GOD STAY FAITHFUL; GOD STAY MERCIFUL; GOD STAY LONG-SUFFERING; GOD STAY BEING A WHEEL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WHEEL; GOD STAY GRACEFUL; GOD STAY BRIGHT AND MORNING STAR; GOD STAY LILY OF THE VALLEY AND THE ROSE OF SHARON.  GOD CONTINUOUSLY,  CONSTANTLY AND CONSISTENTLY BLESS HIS children. GOD STAY DOING SOMETHING!!!! THEREFORE, I CAN  BOLDLY DECLARE THAT

“…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS….”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME

This morning I did not hesitate to get out of bed (4:50 a.m.). YES, I hit the snooze button but only once and I did not use all of my snooze time.  I knew that I HAD to share this morning.   As I “ramble” (type) on the computer and even before I began rambling (typing),  Tasha Cobbs’ For YOUR GLORY began to play in my head.  Just had a HOLY GHOST INTERVENTION as I am typing this (an instant revelation of the WHAT and WHY that you are currently experiencing-MY WORD AND MY DEFINITION).  The song, “For YOUR GLORY” was the answer to my WHY I AM I UP and sharing 5:00 o’clock in the morning on a Sunday during Summer Vacation?  The answer will and does seem clichesish (NEW WORD), For GOD’s GLORY and CLICHES are REAL.  My sharing is For HIS GLORY.

I will admit, confess and I HAVE REPENTED that I have not been GLORIFYING MY GOD IN REAL TIME (INREALTIME is the name of the supposedly weekly blog).  I had begun living in fear AGAIN.   Fear of messing up “AGAIN“, Fear of “Not getting it right” AGAIN, Fear of “Almost” AGAIN.  Fear of Not Having Enough AGAIN. Fear of Not Being Enough AGAIN.  FEAR OF THE BLESSINGS AND THE FAVOR OF GOD AND THEIR TANGIBLE MANIFESTATIONS (RECENT REVELATION). I WAS NOT DOUBTING THE POWER OF GOD. I KNEW AND KNOW THAT HE HAS, HE IS AND HE WILL (FILL IN THE BLANK).

THE ATTACK OF THE ENEMY HAD BEEN, HAS BEEN AND WILL CONTINUE TO BE EXTREMELY SEVERE AND LIFE-THREATENING (“KILL…STEAL AND DESTROY…”). THIS IS NOT A PHENOMENON.  THE ENEMY SEVERELY ATTACKS ALL OF GOD’S CHILDREN.

THE ATTACKS ON MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY HEALTH, MY MIND AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD WERE AND ARE AND WILL CONTINUE TO BE RELENTLESS. I ALLOWED FEAR TO IMPACT AND IMPEDE MY PRAISE AND WORSHIP.  I BEGAN TO LAMENT, WRING MY HANDS AND HOLD MY HEAD IN MY HANDS OVER THINGS THAT I WAS DELIVERED FROM. I WAS NOT PRAISING GOD FOR MY RESTORATION.

MY FEARS CAUSED ME TO ASK, NO CRY OUT “LORD WHEN WILL THE TANGIBLE MANIFESTATIONS OF YOUR BLESSINGS AND FAVORS BE SHOWERED UPON ME AND MY FAMILY.  GOD REVEALED THAT IT WOULD BE SOON!!!!

SOON. I AM WORKING HARDER AS I WAIT UNTIL SOON.  I AM WORSHIPPING AND PRAISING GOD MORE INTENSELY AND INTENTIONALLY AS I WAIT UNTIL SOON.  THIS WILL ALLOW ME TO PREPARE FOR ANOTHER ATTACK OF THE ENEMY BECAUSE I EXPECT ANOTHER ATTACK AS I WAIT UNTIL SOON.

MY TEARS THAT USE TO DROWN MY SORROWS ARE NOW WATERING THE SEEDS THAT WERE PLANTED FOR GOD’S GLORY AS I WAIT UNTIL SOON.

AND THIS IS WHY I CAN BOLDLY DECLARE AND DECREE

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V

INREALTIME

 

 

 

 

I have been trying to feel sorry for myself. I think.  I have been trying to cry over I DON’T KNOW.  I have been trying to complain about ALMOST EVERYTHING OR AT LEAST ABOUT SOMETHING and I CAN’T THINK OF NOTHING.  THANK GOD.

Sometimes LIFE feels uneventful and causes restlessness.  The restlessness, which I ONCE FEARED, has caused me to “FIND” SOMETHING, SOMEONE,  and many times, ANYTHING OR ANYONE to hang with, be with, talk to.  It caused me to take on more tasks and additional expenses and NEITHER were a part of GOD’s Plan.

THE FINDING OF SOMETHING, SOMEONE, ANYTHING OR ANYONE led me to WISH that my LIFE WAS UNEVENTFUL.  I HAVE MISSED SEVERAL BLESSINGS “FINDING” SOMETHING, SOMEONE, ANYTHING OR ANYONE DUE TO MY RESTLESSNESS AND TAKING ON MORE TASKS AND ADDITIONAL EXPENSES.  I WAS NOT BEING A GOOD STEWARD OVER MY TIME, RESOURCES AND ENERGY.

I NO LONGER FEAR RESTLESSNESS AND I FULLY EMBRACE MY BORING AND UNEVENTFUL LIFE WHICH I THOUGHT CAUSED MY RESTLESSNESS.  THE RESTLESSNESS HAS CAUSED ME TO CONTINUOUSLY AND CONSISTENTLY SEEK GOD.  I AM SOOO….. OVER THE DO-OVER.  I WANT TO GET IT RIGHT FOR HE IS GOD.  THE RESTLESSNESS HAS CAUSED ME TO WAIT (THAT AGAIN) AND DECLARE AND KNOW “UM…UM…SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN!!!” THE WAITING CONTINUES TO TEACH ME HOW TO TRUST GOD MORE AND DECLARE AND KNOW “UM…UM…SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN!!!” AND WITH GOD SOMETHING IS EVERYTHING, THEREFORE, 

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V

INREALTIME