Stop saying IT-SHOW IT: LOVE

For several weeks, not two or three, let’s just say since April/May 2017, I have not been able to “connect” with GOD.  It’s as if I am saying (praying) the same prayers and the conversation (prayers) are not as intense as they use to be.  We would talk for hours and days on end: early morning, midday, before bed, at the midnight hour, 2-3 am unofficial early wake up time. It was INTENSE-the conversation (prayers, praise and worship).  We both, GOD and I wanted more!!! HE DESIRED me, HE  WANTED me and PROVED HIS FAITHFULNESS towards me.

Oh, the things WE shared and tears WE shed concerning the growing pains, the regrets, the mistakes and errors, the victories, the celebrations, the joys and the peace.  I desired to be with HIM even more.  HE LOVED ME through it all.  I NOW know what LOVE IS.  I wanted to know HIS WAYS.  I wanted to please GOD.  I wanted HIM to teach and show me HOW to LOVE HIM how HE wanted to be loved.  HE did and I took HIM and HIS LOVE for granted. AGAIN!!!

WE talked, but it just seem like, HE was not paying attention and listening to me.  Our conversation appeared to be short and rushed.  I often said to HIM, I tell you about that later. WE will talk later.  My love YOUs were not as frequent or as intense.  I said it in passing-on my way out the door, before I met and talked with my others, while taking care of some “important” business.  HE had become one of the “things” that I multi-tasked.

See, I was trying to get all of these things handled or situated (old school way and word) so that I can REALLY be with HIM.  HE should know or should have known that I truly love HIM.  I was doing those things to make myself better for HIM. Those things would prove that I loved and was true to HIM.  At least, that’s what I told HIM.

HE responded by saying NOTHING!!!! HE said absolutely NOTHING.  NOTHING!!!!!!  NOT A THING!!!! NOTHING!!!!!

NOTHING concerned me.  I was not used to be in any relationship in which NOTHING was said about any, every and something.   The Silence was deafening and killing me at the same time.  HE said NOTHING!!!!  NOTHING!!!! NOTHING!!!!!

NOTHING? GOD. YOU ARE SAYING NOTHING?  WHY AREN’T  YOU TALKING?  I BEGAN TO QUESTION OUR RELATIONSHIP AND HIS LOVE FOR ME (trick of the enemy). SURELY, WITH EVERYTHING THAT WE HAVE SHARED, THE THINGS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME AND SAID TO ME BEFORE THIS TIME, SURELY, SURELY, YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY.

HE STILL SAID NOTHING!!!! GOD SAYING NOTHING WAS SAYING EVERYTHING.  I BEGAN TO REFLECT ON OUR (GOD AND I) TIMES TOGETHER BEFORE I STARTED WORKING ON ME FOR US (GOD AND I). THIS IS WHEN HE REMINDED ME THAT HE HAS ALREADY TOLD AND SHOWN ME HOW TO LOVE HIM AND PLEASE HIM.  I JUST NEEDED TO DO IT.

HE wants and desires my time and undivided attention.  HE wants to know that I am grateful for all that HE has done and IS doing and WILL DO.  HE wants me to acknowledge HIM in ALL of my ways.  HE wants and desires for me to be faithful to please HIM.

He empathically reminded me that……

…Nothing will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…..”

Tangey V.

INREALTIME