TANGEY V., WE KNOW YOU GOT ROACHES!!!!

I have had a HOLY GHOST INTERVENTION (an instant revelation of the WHAT and WHY that you are currently experiencing–MY WORD AND MY DEFINITION).  I was previously discussing (typing to post in this case), a separate topic. As I was going through my phone for the title (the title of the post usually comes to me after my RAMBLINGS), I came across this title for this post. Let me ‘splain.

In a conversation with very close friends (including my sisters), the title of today’s post was declared to convince us that what we have is true. We don’t have to hide who we are and what we are dealing with. We don’t have to save face. Quoting from the book of MC BREED, “…Ain’t no Future in Yo Frontin’...”

There were times when I HID or DOWNPLAYED how I really felt or what I was going through. As an African American woman, I thought and was taught that I HAD to be STRONG. Such phrases such as “…Never let them see you sweat…” , “…take a licking and keep on ticking…”, “…what goes on in this house…stays in this house…” , “…if it don’t kill you it makes you stronger…”. EXPRESSING HOW YOU FELT WAS A NO NO. NO ONE CARED OR THEY WERE JEALOUS AND WOULD TRY TO THWART YOUR HAPPINESS. EXPRESSING pain, hurt or grieve was an EMBEDDED NO NO. DETRIMENTALLY, pain, hurt and grief would become the MUFFLED MANTRA of African American women, part of the DNA.

Toppled the MUFFLED MANTRA of African American women with the teachings of the church, NO THING and nothing, since I am a Christian, should cause me to be depressed, stressed or overwhelmed. MARTYRDOM OF AFRICAN AMERICAN WOMEN WAS ENSURED THROUGH THE CONSTANT AND CONSISTENT CONSECRATION AND INDOCTRINATION of “…fake it until you make…”, “…too blessed to be stressed…”, “…don’t question GOD…”, “…DON’T TALK ABOUT IT…PRAY ABOUT IT…”

My momma, Dorothy M. Jordan and mostly everyone that knows me said and will say, Tan sure can TALK. She TALKS a lot. I NOW consider that to be a compliment. For it is through TALKING with GOD AND and my maturity in CHRIST THAT NOT ONLY DO I PRAY ABOUT IT, I TALK ABOUT IT (TALK ABOUT IT AND TALK ABOUT IT)!!!!

I AM NOT LOOKING FOR PITY (KILL THAT NOISE)!!!! BUT I DETERMINED TO LIVE AN ABUNDANT LIFE (JOHN 10:10)WITH THIS POSSIBLE “…THORN IN MY FLESH…” (2 CORINTHIANS-12:7-10)!!!! MY THORN, MY STRUGGLES, MY CURRENT SITUATION, MY STRONGHOLDS, COULD POSSIBLE BE THE SHADE IN WHICH OTHERS REST IN THE GLORY OF GOD ( USE ME LORD…TO SHOW SOMEONE THE WAY…I AM AVAILABLE TO YOU...)!!!!

“…WE KNOW YOU GOT ROACHES…” IS A TRUE TESTAMENT TO authentic relationships and friendships. In other words, I don’t have to make you wait outside or in the car. You know the dish and glass was washed thoroughly before I offered you anything to eat or drink. I don’t have to mask the smell of RAID AND BLACK FLAG. I don’t have to EXPLAIN WHY IT LOOKS LIKE COFFEE OR FLOUR has WASTED IN THE CABINETS AND ON THE FLOOR. You KNOW WE ARE SITTING IN THE ROOM WHERE THERE HARDLY ARE ANY ROACHES. You KNOW TO KILL THEM IF YOU SEE THEM. YOU ARE MY FRIEND!!!!

I HAVE TRUE, AUTHENTIC FRIENDS WHO WILLINGLY TO PUT AWAY THEIR PHONES, NOT CHECK SOCIAL MEDIA AND LISTEN TO ME WITHOUT JUDGEMENT BUT WITH ACCOUNTABILITY (THAT ACCOUNTABILITY MANE…WHAT???!!!!). THEY, MY FRIENDS, HAVE DECLARED, “…TANGEY V., WE KNOW YOU GOT ROACHES!!!!

ROACHES: My pain, my hurt, my grief, my struggles, my concerns, my fears, my unwillingness, , my stubborness, and my pettiness are being fumigated. I am NO LONGER ASHAMED OR EMBARASSED OF MY LIFE AND HOW I HAVE BEEN LIVING IT. I HAVE TRUE RIDE OR DIE FRIENDS. During the fumigation process, they arranged to have a safe place for me, they made me and helped me up open up so that ALL of me could get treated AND they made sure my PRIDE AND my SHAME was removed first to ensure success.

JESUS, FORMALLY and MORE ELOQUENTLY AND most definitely LESS COLLOQUIALLY THAN MY FRIENDS (“WE KNOW YOU GOT ROACHES!!!), DECLARES “…I CALL YOU FRIEND...”(JOHN 15:15-17). HE IS SO FAITHFUL AND BEGS US, TO BRING EVERYTHING TO HIM IN PRAYER.

I DON’T HAVE TO WAIT TO PRAY TO HIM, PRAISE HIM, OR WORSHIP HIM. -I DON’T HAVE TO MAKE SURE THINGS ARE IN PRISTINE ORDER PRAY TO HIM, PRAISE HIM, OR WORSHIP HIM. I DON’T HAVE TO MASK THE STENCH FROM MY SINS IN ORDER TO PRAY TO HIM, PRAISE HIM, OR WORSHIP HIM.

THROUGH THE HOLY SPIRIT, JESUS IS IN my pain, my hurt, my grief, my struggles, my concerns, my fears, my unwillingness, my stubbornness, and my pettiness. HE IS NOT JUST MY FRIEND…HIS MY LORD AND MY SAVIOR, MY JOY, MY STRENGTH, MY ALL, MY EVERYTHING, MY PURPOSE, MY HEALER, MY PROVIDER, MY REDEEMER, MY PROTECTOR, MY DELIVERER, MY RESTORER…HE IS GOD!!!!!

AND FOR THE AFOREMENTIONED IS WHY I KNOW THAT…

“…NOTHING will separate ME from the LOVE of GOD which is in CHRIST JESUS…”

TANGEY V.

INREALTIME